My husband N of 45 years died this morning, here at home, on his way to another radiation treatment. Probably from a stroke. This was a shock, but the EMS and fire guys came almost instantly, and worked on him with CPR for 20 minutes or more. I feel totally at sea. I am going to go to the funeral staff and pre-plan for my own end. It is too much to do this without any guidance when death comes calling.